There was a time when I wouldn’t allow myself to be more than a mother. I thought that if I took on anything else I would be doing a disservice to my children. After all, their father is in the army and we all know how much time he spends working…they didn’t need two parents that didn’t have time for them. The results of this lifestyle were borderline catastrophic. I fell into deep depression, I lost my friends one by one, and my relationship with my husband was under water. All because I took this one aspect of my life…and made it my everything.
In time I’d heard a message from Terri Copeland Pearsons about how she knew how to prioritize her life even though she was a traveling speaker. God helped her divide her time so that she was able to be there for her children when they needed her, and she was able to fulfill her other duties without neglecting her family. This was eye-opening to me, because before hearing this I hadn’t deemed it possible to have that type of wisdom…to have balance.
Today I find myself in the position of fighting for my time. I know there are other things I can do and I desperately want to do them, but I’ve got a handful of other things (and little people) at home that need tending to almost constantly, and with a recent upheaval of all I own (moved from Germany to Texas) this struggle has grown exponentially. Today I know what and when, I simply struggle with the how.
Don’t complicate your mind. Wake up and live.